I really, really don't know what to do. I really, really hope to calm down and relax myself. But.. somehow, I fail to do my part. I'm a human. I can breathe, talk and walk. In addition, I can smile, laugh and cry. I really, really do.
So.. is my future still a bleak one?
Is there anymore thing I can do? I just want to save myself from the indulgence and mists. I'm really, really tired. I really, really don't want to think things with my legs. I have a brain and ought to make good use of my cells. That is the only right thing I should do.
Come on.. let's just knock it off. Pea-brain.
I thought everything is back to normal after the last weekend I had. Yes, it is. The breeze and cool era. How can I just blank out? I can never forget. Yes, I can't. It's time to pull myself together, again.
Hello.. are you there?
Please.
Just take things easy, will you? You can and, eventually, will. Kindly bear yourself some reminders. If you lost, just find somebody to talk to. Don't.. don't keep things to yourself. If not, you will only be lost in your dreams. You will never find another alternative to return away. You have choices. You have yourself to count onto. Don't be scared. (( :
Life seems like a joke. Everybody seem to be fools playing along. But.. why? Why do I feel like that? Why is life so pathetic? Why are the masks all floating around? Why is it so smelly? Why can't I see anything? Why can't I hear anything? Why can't I touch anything? Am I prohibited?
Oh man.
After minutes of thinking while writing these junks..
I wanted to say something else. Really something else.
Maybe I sound contradicting. But, I get what I mean. That's enough. (( :
And the thing is.. i finally woke up!
I realised something. At least, I'm really, really much more luckier than others. I lead a fortunate life. I do not pang for concerns. I'm not one who hunger for love all my life. Also, I do understand myself, as well as certain. I imagine myself as a kid who's living in a sweet shp whereby I experienced the real emotions rush of beings. I'm a sophisticated grown-up, in a way. In the way, I steered clear of those wild, holy and all-consuming states. Now.. i do beg to differ.
And I felt about 30 years old, mature, and wise, and overwhemling. I felt great, suddenly. Sometimes, mood swings do get one carried away. It's really bad for health. And.. i felt like saying this, too.
"Let nature take its own course."
** My handphone will be back tomorrow. And.. i'm richer after getting my pay. Woohoo! Maybe it's time to get 2 outer jackets. My hairdo needs a re-vamp, too. Let me consider deeply, thoroughly, first. (( :
So.. is my future still a bleak one?
Is there anymore thing I can do? I just want to save myself from the indulgence and mists. I'm really, really tired. I really, really don't want to think things with my legs. I have a brain and ought to make good use of my cells. That is the only right thing I should do.
Come on.. let's just knock it off. Pea-brain.
I thought everything is back to normal after the last weekend I had. Yes, it is. The breeze and cool era. How can I just blank out? I can never forget. Yes, I can't. It's time to pull myself together, again.
Hello.. are you there?
Please.
Just take things easy, will you? You can and, eventually, will. Kindly bear yourself some reminders. If you lost, just find somebody to talk to. Don't.. don't keep things to yourself. If not, you will only be lost in your dreams. You will never find another alternative to return away. You have choices. You have yourself to count onto. Don't be scared. (( :
Life seems like a joke. Everybody seem to be fools playing along. But.. why? Why do I feel like that? Why is life so pathetic? Why are the masks all floating around? Why is it so smelly? Why can't I see anything? Why can't I hear anything? Why can't I touch anything? Am I prohibited?
Oh man.
After minutes of thinking while writing these junks..
I wanted to say something else. Really something else.
Maybe I sound contradicting. But, I get what I mean. That's enough. (( :
And the thing is.. i finally woke up!
I realised something. At least, I'm really, really much more luckier than others. I lead a fortunate life. I do not pang for concerns. I'm not one who hunger for love all my life. Also, I do understand myself, as well as certain. I imagine myself as a kid who's living in a sweet shp whereby I experienced the real emotions rush of beings. I'm a sophisticated grown-up, in a way. In the way, I steered clear of those wild, holy and all-consuming states. Now.. i do beg to differ.
And I felt about 30 years old, mature, and wise, and overwhemling. I felt great, suddenly. Sometimes, mood swings do get one carried away. It's really bad for health. And.. i felt like saying this, too.
"Let nature take its own course."
** My handphone will be back tomorrow. And.. i'm richer after getting my pay. Woohoo! Maybe it's time to get 2 outer jackets. My hairdo needs a re-vamp, too. Let me consider deeply, thoroughly, first. (( :
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