It has been ages since I last stepped into that place.
However so, I have invaded into that sacred territory for more than 5 hours. And.. I was earning bucks for myself. Isn’t that great?
I used to swear and curse. I really dreaded going to work for those same causes. I didn’t even want to see him of her. Yet, I find people licking all the way up. Somehow, being an apple-polisher is a norm. But, why?
Honestly, I don’t give a damn. This is ridiculous. I’m neither a slave nor dog. I find no reason to degrade myself to such an extent. Look.. I’m not being angry, right now. I’m just so disgusted by the true colours of mankind. It’s as disappointing as ever. I felt satisfied as soon as I have had done all the things I ought to do. The rest are really redundant.
Those humiliations all along I have faced encouraged me even more. I have learnt to stand up after falling down. I can’t just keep relying on people. I have hands and legs. I even have a brain, to my surprise. So.. why should I worry? Actually, it’s really crucial for one to take things at its stride. If not, sufferings will haunt the era forever. Having ups and downs make someone grow up. Life is never perfect. So, people should wake up at this instant.
That’s for work and school.
Now, I have thought some other matters. The camp was overall a failure, to me. But.. like I say, I’m not worried or troubled at all. Cos I have learnt many things. And if I were to be given yet another chance, I’m sure I will do a better job than before. At least the reality has sharpened me and propelled me to face the harsh, solid truths in life. All along, I have been dreaming. I’m a slacker. (( :
Unlike the past, now I know who I can look up upon to. I know who the ones who really care for me are. I know who the ones who can make me smile whole-heartedly are. And.. I know who the ones who can make me drop tears are. In conclusion, I cried 2 hard periods for this particular event. Right now, the peace prevails. Everything is alright, again.
I have thought of the amount of money I have wasted. The more I concentrated on my cca, the more I lose out. Reality is just so real. Money isn’t really that important. Yet, the value is also vulnerable. In life, no money means no life. Nothing at all. Also, I have not been training for months. My personal training spree has halted ages ago. I’m so ashamed.. blush*
Time will prove. I will be as healthy as before. I can be as cheerful as before. All I need is yet another glimpse of hope from my family and friends. I’m eternally grateful that at least I’m much more fortunate than others. It’s alright to live in a car. It’s alright to not have a car. It’s alright to have 5 people sleeping in a room. It’s alright to baby-sit for household expenses. It’s alright to work 7 days a week. It’s alright to be bullied by others. It’s alright to treat others. It’s alright to get lost. It’s alright to cry. It’s alright to shout. It’s aright to be fat. It’s alright to be simple. It’s alright to be you.
Sometimes, people around me speak in unpleasant tones. However, if not for them, I will never be optimistic. I’m glad to have those people around. Today, I still have many different clicks of friends. Yet, I’m elated to learn that I have value and am a somebody, someone will cherish a lot.
I feel damn lucky. (( :
I begin to like those people more and more. I hope everybody will be happy. I hope the storms will soon be over for the heartbroken. I hope that everyone will be able to find that key to open the door inside their souls.
One day, they will. Trust me..
However so, I have invaded into that sacred territory for more than 5 hours. And.. I was earning bucks for myself. Isn’t that great?
I used to swear and curse. I really dreaded going to work for those same causes. I didn’t even want to see him of her. Yet, I find people licking all the way up. Somehow, being an apple-polisher is a norm. But, why?
Honestly, I don’t give a damn. This is ridiculous. I’m neither a slave nor dog. I find no reason to degrade myself to such an extent. Look.. I’m not being angry, right now. I’m just so disgusted by the true colours of mankind. It’s as disappointing as ever. I felt satisfied as soon as I have had done all the things I ought to do. The rest are really redundant.
Those humiliations all along I have faced encouraged me even more. I have learnt to stand up after falling down. I can’t just keep relying on people. I have hands and legs. I even have a brain, to my surprise. So.. why should I worry? Actually, it’s really crucial for one to take things at its stride. If not, sufferings will haunt the era forever. Having ups and downs make someone grow up. Life is never perfect. So, people should wake up at this instant.
That’s for work and school.
Now, I have thought some other matters. The camp was overall a failure, to me. But.. like I say, I’m not worried or troubled at all. Cos I have learnt many things. And if I were to be given yet another chance, I’m sure I will do a better job than before. At least the reality has sharpened me and propelled me to face the harsh, solid truths in life. All along, I have been dreaming. I’m a slacker. (( :
Unlike the past, now I know who I can look up upon to. I know who the ones who really care for me are. I know who the ones who can make me smile whole-heartedly are. And.. I know who the ones who can make me drop tears are. In conclusion, I cried 2 hard periods for this particular event. Right now, the peace prevails. Everything is alright, again.
I have thought of the amount of money I have wasted. The more I concentrated on my cca, the more I lose out. Reality is just so real. Money isn’t really that important. Yet, the value is also vulnerable. In life, no money means no life. Nothing at all. Also, I have not been training for months. My personal training spree has halted ages ago. I’m so ashamed.. blush*
Time will prove. I will be as healthy as before. I can be as cheerful as before. All I need is yet another glimpse of hope from my family and friends. I’m eternally grateful that at least I’m much more fortunate than others. It’s alright to live in a car. It’s alright to not have a car. It’s alright to have 5 people sleeping in a room. It’s alright to baby-sit for household expenses. It’s alright to work 7 days a week. It’s alright to be bullied by others. It’s alright to treat others. It’s alright to get lost. It’s alright to cry. It’s alright to shout. It’s aright to be fat. It’s alright to be simple. It’s alright to be you.
Sometimes, people around me speak in unpleasant tones. However, if not for them, I will never be optimistic. I’m glad to have those people around. Today, I still have many different clicks of friends. Yet, I’m elated to learn that I have value and am a somebody, someone will cherish a lot.
I feel damn lucky. (( :
I begin to like those people more and more. I hope everybody will be happy. I hope the storms will soon be over for the heartbroken. I hope that everyone will be able to find that key to open the door inside their souls.
One day, they will. Trust me..
0 Responses to “A long rest”
Post a Comment