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My greatest desire now is get my leg well, again. If not, I'll be in dire straits. Right now, I'm already in deep shits. Oh man.

Recently, days have been demanding. I find myself rushing everyday. There are so many things I have to do. There are really a whole tons of work piling right in front of me. Soemtimes, I think I'm suffocating. It's like I can't.. Breathe?

Maybe that's how a leader is supposed to feel. A great leader has to be one, who can overcome all obstacles. So.. No matter who, I must endure. I must do things that I ought to do. But, it's so hard. I really, really hope I can make it in time.

School has been boring. And.. I find myself getting more and more paranoid each day. I get irritated at the sight of some people. For what, I do not know. I just know I get 'pek chey' to even hear their voices. I realised something, you know? Some girls really do like to act cute and pretty. Some even worse. They try to fight and compete with you, indirectly. They simply just want to win you in everything. Oh man.. I surrender.

I will rather walk off than argue with them. I'm so tired. Assuming I'm crude, I will be a fool if I get involved with them. I'm simply washing my hands out of their business. I'm not going to be bothered. It's a norm to have 'funny' people around us. If not, how can the world be full of all walks of lives?

One sentence - May God bless them.

Exams are coming, too. And.. I will be as 'kan chiong' like before. Oh no. Actually, right now, I have no mood for anything. I just want to score in the remaining papers. After that, I will need to work out my cca proposals. Then, I will settle those camps. And lastly.. I will meet all my beloved beloveds.

I want to go kite flying. I want to watch stars, too. I want to do many, many things. I also want to eat sakae sushi and korea's ginseng chicken. It's so yummy yummy can. Oh well.. I just want to do my own things at my own pace during the long break. I guess I will be working again, too.

Time after time, I told myself to wait. I make sure that i don't rush things. If not, my whole life will be in total mess. I have grown up, now. Nobody will be there to clean up after me. I am independent. Yes, I am.

Somehow, I find myself getting lighter each day. I feel light in my heart. Maybe I'm really starting to get enlightened. Woo hoo. That's superb. I feel great. Honestly, this is a beautiful world. I meet people who accept me for who I am. I'm starting to get the confidences back. When I think of these people, I will just smile. Gratitudes simply melt my heart.

I'm learning. I will be continue to be a good Singaporean citizen.