smallminded;

I maybe a girl, but I don't look like one. I maybe a girl, but I don't behave like one. I maybe a girl, but I don't look after myself like one. I maybe be a girl, but Toom is much more a girl than me.

Honestly, I admire him a lot. No.. It's 'she' a lot.

I have learnt lots, through his broadcasted life story. Sometimes, one need not necessarily say much to strive hard. The most important thing is.. To know your main aim in life; fight like a real man or, woman.

Somehow, I felt tiny as compared to Toom. She was much more braver. She never give up becoming her real inner self. She was neither afraid nor ashamed. In fact, she was proud of what she was. She certainly has what it takes. She shot up her own fame, ALL by herself. Indeed, this was something impressionable. Thumbs up for her!

I believe all kinds of people exist in this world. Different people have various types of characters, and personalities. Not just Toom, alone..

Actually, I envy those people who dare to stand up for their OWN rights. They fought TOUGHLY for things they want. They never give up their identities in this society. However dim their hopes were, they were still as determined as ever. This is so.. I'm speechless.

I'm a straight woman. I don't stray off in other directions. Since young, Ma has taught me to be a realistic person. I ought to only got for things that are within my means and will. I must LEARN to cultivate my determination. Only then will I be able to succeed. Like I say, I have got to make myself, have what it takes.

In my opinion, boys should only like girls. Woman should only take fancy of man. That's what I called - right. But today.. I changed my mind. There's nothing, in fact, I can do to change this fact. I have no right to alter anyone's lives. I'm just a - nobody.

Deep down inside my heart, I hope Collin and Kero will be happy forever. It does not concern me whether they are just faking or not. If they do, there's nothing I can do. To me, this is not a fagort's fairy tale. True LOVE can really happen.. Only if you trust it. I do. I'm sure Toom didn't regret her decision, either. I'm feeling joyful for her, TOO. Anything is possible, if you have the confidence and will-power.

These days, I noticed that I have changed. I have become different in all ways. I have yet revolved completely. It's just so - different. Maybe everything's changing too? At least, I supposed too. I'm grateful that I'm ablt to express my thoughts and meet real, nice pals around. There can be many friends. But, it's as hard as ROCK to find sincere buddies to go through ALL storms with you. I'm glad I know who mine were.

I have been roaming outside these days. This just struck me thinking..

I have been a darn fortunate kid. I don't have the perfect looks, or figure. I'm NOT filthy rich, and popular. But.. I have normal, NORMAL figures. This is more than enough. I'm really satisified and contented already. I REALLY don't expect much. I just NEED to brush on, for my self inferiority complex's skills. If not, I will NEVER make it in life. I can't afford to FAIL like last time. I'm NOT a rotten green apple.

I told myself I was a bright, healthy RED apple.

AND.

The most difficult thing is.. Trying not to forget who you really want to be.

I didn't, and I'm still trying like what Toom did.

I'm. So.. Don't ever give up on me. I know I can do it. I really CAN.

I KNOW that.