smallminded;

I think I’m always the causes for many misunderstandings.

Mm..

Mm..

Mm..

After a few days of pondering, I have sorted out my thoughts; in a sense. I was born to think perfectly. In my life, I always expect people to do things according to my standards. If I say it’s nice, then it will be nice. If not, it will be just yet, another typical – bullshit.

Many times, I assume things in a totally different perspective. My angles differ from the rest, mainly the crowds of clicks. I don’t like to do things with a group. I prefer to be alone; and I don’t mind. I don’t want to use and have something which is common. I go for the rare species.

So.. what have I learnt all these years? What have I done to achieve the ultimate satisfaction in my life? Am I on the right path, after all?

One word – LOL.

Life is always never easy. Relationships are hard to capture. Feelings are teams of formations. One has to get what he or she mean. If not, you will suffer at the fate in your very own hands. Those stains will never be erased off. You will be haunted forever and ever and ever. Falling down can be hurting at times, too. You will never know.

Finally, Enviro-day’s over. Over all, to me, it has been a success. At least, more people have learnt and heard of us. That’s great, isn’t it? CCA is just add-on anyway. I’m just satisfied that I have done my part. Fair and square. Suddenly, I realised that I seem to be the one who brought bad influential to the vice president’s reputation. Did I speak ill of him? I felt bad, all these while. He can be nice, too. Oh well..

The class has been like before, I guess. But, I really really regret coming to a polytechnic. I hate some of the attitudes of the people here. To me, they have no sense of shame at all. They are ill-mannered and have no courtesy. That shows how “well” their up-bringing are. I have been teased as a victim by several of these stranger clicks. And.. I don’t know know them. It’s like a group of boys or girls will just shout at you when you walked past them. I have no idea why they are laughing, giggling or pinpointing at me.

Know what?

Human beings are just lame creatures. All are trying to be funny.

I will be a more honest and positive person. Times have indeed, change. My self-esteem is still growing up. I can still be unsure of myself too, be it anything. I will work harder. It was nice talking to people whom you never thought you will. It was awesome to hang out with people whom you never thought you will. That’s what I feel, now.

It has been quite some whiles since I last saw my ninjado gang. The performance date is drawing nearer too. Here’s 3 cheers for them. YEA.. YEA.. YEA.. I know they can make it. ( : ( : ( :

Finally, it’s over! It’s really over for the A levels’ kids. Hip hip hurray! Also, for the NTU people. Now.. I can get to meet up with some of my really old, old friends. I never see them for nearly 2 years or many months. HAHAHA. But, now my common test weeks are coming soon, too. May all the rest strive hard for their papers. JIA YOU! Especially Alvin, Mui, Jojo, Dean, Linda, Fuxian and Gracie!

It’s also wonderful to get to know some other people. Like Xp, Huimin, Nadz & gang, Angelina, You Xin, GXO, etc. Woohoo!

Honestly, I miss Han Sheng a lot. Now, I’m like alone without my mentor. Haha. I also miss Hua & Long. I never see them ages back. Wa.. Yup, that’s all folks.

Maybe it’s really time for me to reflect on myself. I ought to do some soul-searching. If I have a chance to start all over again, I will just keep things to myself, only. All I can say is – sorry.

*P.s. FLORA LADY. Buck up! JOYYCEE is always with you. SMILES. Don’t give up hopes. ALL the best. I know you’ll be happy like before. Take care!