smallminded;

I tried to help myself, by thinking of more positive things. Those happier memories I have had before, kept me alive somehow. Aha. Why do I always get defeated whenever I'm really for other, new challenges? Why are people so mean and cruel?

Ok.

Well, I believe I can't stop some people from doing what they want to do. That's alright. I'm absolutely fine with it all. But, why? I need an answer to unlock that question. Yet, I felt coldness, all the time. All my souls seemed to be growing in pain, from head to toe. Right from the beginning, I never ask for anything much. But, why?

Once again, why?

I'm badly beaten up, now. I can't be a better being. So what, if love is all around? Do I get to feel it? Can I deserve it? Sometimes, life is like a clueless pit. I'm really getting older. I can't remember what I want. I can't figure what I need for the past seconds. Oh oh oh..

I really thought that everything was over. The good will always win the bad. ALWAYS. But, why not for this time? I had enough. I'm really dying. I can't bear to face anymore disclaimings. What I think was good, was bad, after all.

Give me a little bit more time.

I'm still not ready yet. I'm unprepared.

Shh..